Avoidance

I have become the master of avoidance. I don't know how it happened. I see a deadline, I wait and wait, and then I work until the last possible moment to finish whatever assignment it was. What is wrong with working ahead? I have great plans to do this or this, but the topic/assignment is so far from interesting that I just cannot commit that much time to it. I let the assignment dwell within me, making me stressed and annoyed which in turn leaks on to those around me. You can always tell when I'm avoiding school. It's ugly.

I write this while 'working' on a paper over Women's Literacy. I even picked this topic. What is wrong with me? I actually care about educating women worldwide. Why, then, can I not seem to get it together to write this? I think I have myself convinced that I work best under pressure, so I continue this cycle of avoidance which turns into procrastination, or is it the other way around? Maybe I should continue to ponder that to further avoid this assignment?

If I could just get it together, then I could have all assignments turned in by the end of November and have ALL of December off and not have to start school again until January 18th. That would be a 7 week break. 7 WEEKS! It sounds quite lovely, and I hope to work towards that goal, but let's be honest. 1 book and 2.5 papers? (I give the half because the paper due this week is draft one of a final paper due December something as the final paper.) If I can do good now, then I will have less to correct for it. COME ON LACY!